Peace for your Path...

"peace. it does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble or hard work. it means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart." (unknown)

Monday, December 12, 2011


I hesitate to write this because I really don't have the words formed anywhere near just the way I'd like. But I am getting something like that pounding, bursting, hot feeling in my chest that happens occasionally when I find myself sitting in a large gathering of people and suddenly feel there is something pressing I need to say out loud. The incredibly frightening part of getting such a feeling (like that and like this) is that I rarely ever have a clue what I will actually be saying out loud until after I open my mouth. For a person (like me) who is deathly afraid of public speaking, this fairly frequent occurrence can be more than a little unsettling.

But it's been many hours since the Solitude Retreat this past Saturday morning when I sat silently on a bench  staring at my own feet and outward at the feet of Mary, and this suggestion of a thought is now rambling around and around in my brain so loudly now that no matter how hard I try to distract myself, I only think it will get louder until I finally stop, submit and write it out.

(This is how things seem to go for me. Big stuff sticks and won't turn me loose. I simply have to write it out.)

Maybe this suggestion is sort of radical. Or maybe you have thought about this idea yourself for a long time and to you it makes perfect sense (if so, please let me know). Because I don't know (and hopefully I don't have to understand it, but merely name it). For me, this growing awareness began surfacing many years ago, when I finally began stretching awake from the dark and sleepy stupor of myself. Since the moment the alarm went off, my stumbling, morning walk has been equal parts comforting and terrifying in a kind of "it all seems so simple and so incredibly impossible" type of way.

But anyway, here goes...

What if the Second Advent we are preparing for during this Christmas Season of Expectation is less of an external event than it is an internal one? What if those of us who have accepted Jesus into our hearts are now being called to a deeper awareness of the physical and figurative in-dwelling of Christ? What if the Kingdom of God is so readily "at hand" that it exists right this very moment, right inside our very own hearts, and that we are walking around not even aware of it? What if, like Mary, we are each - man, woman and child alike - preparing ourselves for a great and sacred Birth that is impossible to fully comprehend and also impossible to delay? What if this "Birthing" is really a "Submitting" to the Christ who has always been Alive and Dwelling in our hearts/minds/souls from our very first breath on earth? And, what IF Christ's heavenly entry back into our broken, human world is intended and necessary and required to start in the womb of our own broken human lives and bodies? What if this miracle can only happen by way of the LOVE we commit to share with one another and  ALL THE OTHERS  through the surrender of the gift of our lives?

I hope this was what I was supposed to say out loud to whoever might read this today. Thanks for listening.

Peace for your Path,


Lori said...

I am like you Robin, although things I do force me at times to speak publicly, it is generally from some platform that I have scribed out, and I fill in the blanks with humor. Calms my uneasiness.
I am quiet by nature, introverted and spend a lot of time in quiet. I spend every morning "writing it out" sometimes several times a day. Helps me process. I can start at "A" and end up heaven knows where, but where is the core of what I am feeling.
I happen to agree with what you said. I do believe the kingdom is at hand. I think the is what Jesus was saying. The kingdom is here, now. Not somewhere out in the universe, that we aim for after we die, aka "heaven" We are here to do and be what we were created to be, and that is an internal event. To understand ourselves as we were created, perfect, loving, and a part of God, that is hard for a lot of people to swallow. I think you perfect sense. Not because I agree, but it comes from a depth of understanding within you... and something that yes perhaps someone needed to read today. I thought it was great. :)
Wendy has me doing the word a day from SSJE, today's word was welcome. It's been really good to read and ponder... expecially the one would tags.
There is and indwelling..... we just have to remember it. We are not separate or apart from God. We have what we need, we just have to remember and tap it.
I could talk forever about this.... so I'm gonna shut up. Thank you for this. It may have been a stretch for you to put yourself out there and disclose, but it's so worth it. It's that pebble and the ripple it creates.

tom phillips said...

Wow Robin, you've hit the truth many of us are embracing right on the head with this post. The confusion is common upon first awareness, how could it possibly be this simple? My only question is what you meant by giving our lives up? Tom Phillips

Robin Bradley Hansel said...

Thanks so much, Lori and Tom, for both of your responses...

I so appreciate the grace of getting to walk the Path with you through our writings and sharings.

I was speaking, Tom, of the whole "losing our life and finding it" paradox found throughout scripture. For me, personally, it has been a difficult journey to realize that so many things I held onto in my life as "truths" were actually built on lies I told myself, others told me, or I believed naively, etc. By "losing" all of that and continuing the process of daily letting it go, I think I am finally able to start stepping into real "Truth" and maybe (hopefully) beginning to lead the authentic life God has always wanted to give me. My dreams were just too small!

Thanks for asking...